10.5.2009

she didn't open her eyes.
she's tired?
3 of us keep calling her..
"ma ma"
"lei teang dou mou?"
suddenly her heartbeat increase.
she able to hear what we said.
my dad asked us to keep on call her.
suddenly she open her eyes.
very very slightly.

"ma ma"

i started to cry.
my tears just can't stop.
i really feel myself weak.
i can't cry infront of her.
i guess she want us to smile instead of cry.
but i cried.
then i ran out from the ward.
stupid me...
really hate myself being so weak..
my dad saw me ran out.
he came out too.
then my sister also came out,
guess what,
she's also crying like me..
we both eyes super red.
i dare not go into the ward again.
doctor said her kidney cannot function anymore.
are she suffering now?



grandma,
happy mother's day
........